After war, strife, murders, racism, segregation, mass shootings, a deathly virus, and so much more negative shit — I still want to believe that the world is good. After all, it’s the only way I can cling onto hope for a better world that we and future generations so desperately deserve and need. With sadness, that hope continues to etch away with the latest political decision to overturn Roe v. Wade, the nearly 50 year historical law that gave women the rights to their bodies by way of abortion.

Nearly a month ago, on June 24th, the Supreme Court ruled that American no longer have the constitutional right to abortion, protected by Roe v. Wade’s nearly 5 decade strong reproductive rights law. There was a 6-3 majority vote among the Court and one that showed Republican states will ban abortion and Democratic-led states will reinforce protections — making where you reside a key factor in your options.

The Court, made up entirely of whom were appointed by Republican presidents, decided that there was no text in the Constitution or nation’s history that grants the right to end a pregnancy.

“Roe was egregiously wrong from the start,” said one of the justices who delivered the announcement. “Its reasoning was exceptionally weak, and the decision has had damaging consequences. It is time to heed the Constitution and return the issue of abortion to the people’s elected representatives.”

This is of course a very heavy subject for women as it directly affects us and is the very reason why it’s taken me nearly a month to form thoughts together. Here is where I am at.

To fundamentally tell a woman that the thing growing inside her actual body is not her decision to make is incredibly ludicrous and lacks logic. How does a person who is carrying another person not have a say? It’s not that we have some say, it’s that with the overturn of Roe v. Wade, if we live in Republican states, we are forced to abide by their rules or seek care in a different state which we might not have the means (money or transit) to get to. The entire operation is ill planned, not thoughtful, and highly disrespectful.

Women everywhere, including high fashion designers are disgusted with what is going on. “I am outraged by the Supreme Court’s decision to overturn Roe v. Wade, stripping women of the constitutional right to make safe, informed choices about their own bodies,” Tory Burch wrote on Instagram. “This decision was a giant step backwards for women, but we are undeterred and know we need to step up now more than ever. I believe in a world where women are free to make choices that are right for them – and not be penalized for those choices.”

Like I said, I want to believe in a better world but the bull shit happening in the Supreme Court right now begs to differ. The New York Times is tracking where abortion is now banned. These are companies that will cover the cost of travel expenses for employees seeking an abortion.

In case it didn’t cross your mind, the repercussions of this decision could also mean that period apps and their data could be weaponized against women.